Tuesday, May 18, 2010

My mind's abuzzin

I really need to step back, organize and figure out what needs to be done on a daily basis. Right now I feel like I'm on a tilt-a-whirl. It's a good kinda feeling; excited, a little scary, wrapped up in the motions and just a little nauseous.

I'm finally getting projects done.

Which is a good thing except I keep thinking my dance card has a free space and adding new projects to it that I've been wanting to do for a long time. You can actually see the top of my sewing desk now. I'd like to keep it that way...at least for a little while.

We've gotten into a groove around the house. All the laundry is washed, sheets have been changed, the kids have been getting dressed when they're told (well, mostly) and making their beds in the morning, a couple sewing projects have gotten finished or close to it, homeschool has been easy and most of the errands have gotten done without much fuss.

So, of course, I decide that I need more stuff to do. Why I can't let things just slide I don't know. There are so many things on my list of stuff to learn and things to do. I want to learn to make soap. With lye. I want to make new quilts for all the kids, I just threw in a batch of homemade dog biscuits in the oven, I tried to can some strawberry jam. We're having a bbq on Saturday and I'm sitting here on the verge of looking up homemade pasta recipes. I have the semolina and we're almost out of pasta.

We might be changing our homebuilding plans from pier foundation and stick frame to slab and concrete. So, add in the multitude of research needed for that. Yesterday, I bought all the supplies on Etsy to make reusable cloth pads. And still last night, I bought fabric to make dresses for the girls that weren't even close to being in the queue of projects. I'm contemplating starting new seeds to add to some spots in the garden that things didn't sprout.

Why do I do this to myself? Why can't I be idle? I don't know why, I'm not sure I'm meant to not have a project in hand. I suppose this is a wonderful attribute for a wanna-be farmer but darn it if it doesn't get my mind buzzing with all the possiblities of things I could learn or things I could do when even a minute spot opens up in my schedule.

1 comment:

Betsy said...

I go to see a wonderful therapist just for this very problem...